Metamorphosis
Live life as it is~Archive for December, 2008
Feeling the frustration
With term-ends going on for almost a fortnight alongwith catching flu a couple of days back, my life’s currently going pretty downhill lately. Could say that I can’t stay in a good mood for more than a couple of hours at max. Can’t say what exactly the problem is. -_-
Anyway, my exams have been okay till now. CS and Computers rocked; Maths was more terrible than I’d imagined; and Physics was… okay-ish. I’d a screaming headache in the middle of the exam, accompanied by a bit of fever most probably, so couldn’t write much. Even though I actually knew quite a lot of what I was unable to complete. Could’ve definitely scored 5-6 marks more, meh.
On another note, Christmas was a lot of fun this year! We got a cute li’l tree and decorated it with even cuter and li’ler stuff and a lovely red and snowy backdrop. Got some pics uploaded on my orkut account – gonna upload more with candles. On that day, I totally wanted to bake and have some good cake but didn’t really have much time due to my Physics exam the very next day ( and I didn’t even know the chapters in syllabus, forget having studied once, lol ). Finally, by around 10 at night, I lost my patience and started baking one. The result was a delicious brown cake filled with nuts, raisins and dark chocolate, and iced with frozen chocolate grating. Alongwith some superficial X’mas decoration, heh. It looked really inviting by the end of it. We all literally dove into it even though we’d just had dinner, and before you’d know, there were just three pieces of the whole thing left. Still, it was a hell lot of fun! ^.^
Yesterday, my family and I had gone to watch the movie ‘ Ghajini ‘. My cousin ( more like my brother, lol ) had come down from Mumbai for the weekend so we had this plan of chilling out together. I hadn’t been much interested in watching this one from the very beginning but we went for it nonetheless. Reached the place half an hour late but came to know that we hadn’t really missed anything of importance. The movie itself was a pretty pathetic piece, if you ask me. The detailing was too bad, the actors couldn’t stop over-acting their parts, and the plot was… non-existing. Dunno what’s all the hype about it. I mean, if you’re actually revolving your plot around some disease, known as short term amnesia in this case, shouldn’t you research it a bit? And stick according to it?! Supposedly, this guy seemed to have been injured and kept losing his complete memory every fifteen minutes. Still, he had jotted down notes to help him recover his memory which will definitely take you more than fifteen minutes to read. Even if they don’t, you’d definitely have to use the better part of the alloted time to go through them. Add to that the fact that there was hardly any instance when he was actually shown to have lost his memory in fifteen minutes. Most of the time, it stretched to at least 30-45 minutes. The lead actress, while being a cute bubbly girl, seemed to do her part a bit too much. Kinda unrealistic. The ‘villain’ didn’t really have the brains or guts to be one. Maaan, I actually went to sleep sometime around the ending, asking my bro to wake me up when the credits rolled out. Oh well, I don’t wanna write out a critical review on it, sheesh.
Anyway, I’m thinking of changing my name. Not that I’ve got something against the current one; I just can’t connect to its meaning. And there are names which I like better. Though I’m not sure how much seriously is my family taking this, heh. Hopefully, I’ll be able to change to a better one~
Alright, this is it for now. Gonna go get something to munch on and watch some Burial. Sanzo’s arc, obviously. Not that I don’t like Goku’s arc but Sanzo’s hairdo in that one kinda gets on my nerves. And I don’t have the subbed version of Hakkai/Gojyo arc though I pretty much know by heart from the manga exactly what they’re talking about and I do get Japanese quite a bit by now, it’s still preferable to watch a subbed version. Of course, it must be out by now – I’ve just been too lazy. After downloading the raw a few days after it was released, I never really went for the subbed one. Anyway, Sanzo’s arc is definitely the most preferred cuz… it’s got Sanzo? Lol, and it’s got Koumyou and Ukoku and their awesome philosophies. And it’s actually based off the manga so all those who’ve read it know why it is so awesome. ;) I’d thought that they’d censor it completely – I mean, it is Saiyuki, and it is not meant for kids, of course ( they won’t get half of what is going on anyway ). And well, the first season was amazingly censored with the third’s second half going haywire. The second, Reload, was the only one I’d actually enjoyed ( and loved~ Truly the Saiyuki spirit! ). The movie and Premium OVAs hadn’t gone down well either so I remember having great expectations from the Burial arcs. And did they deliver! With a creative punch, too! Truly worth watching~
Okay, I should really get going now, hee. Later~
Getting a hang of anime-styled eyes
Finally. Though I’ve managed to completely sketch just four till now, I’m definitely getting the hang of it. The last one took about fifteen minutes, so. ^.^ Got ways to go still – I’m aware of that but hey, I like to be happy over any possible thing I find, lol.
Anime-styled Eyes
The last one got a li’l blurred due to my stupid attempt to enlarge a non-vector image. >.> I’ll try make out a few more before progressing on to the nose and mouth sketching. That, at least, looked easy! Though I’ve got my exams in a couple of days so I’m not sure how much I’ll be able to get in before I drown in the myriad of books. Well, keeping fingers crossed!
On a different note, I’ve been hooked onto SDK as I mentioned before. The download speed from AnimeHQ’s damn good so it’s a feast, heh. But everything else on this front’s pretty much down though I have no idea why. I mean, I seem to be wasting quite a bit of time these days and I can’t find any source of distraction. Well, except that I’m dragged around for my opinions and views over a lot of things and problems all the time so I’m mostly in a pissed off state, which might be the reason for my unfocused state, but really, it’s getting a bit too much now. Gotta fall back in a nice schedule again. And cut down a bit on fiction-reading. -sincere nod- Alright then, I should get to studying CS for now; that’s the first test after all and I haven’t even picked up the book other than that sess time. Will try complete some Computers chapters if I get the time after that. I don’t remember shit about the C++ syntax even though I guess C would be quite alright to deal with. I could’ve asked Prashant to help out ( well, he *is* the self-proclaimed master of C++ programming ), but then, he’s busy with the Java thing, too. Damn, I’m still gonna annoy him! So long now – I’ll get to studies now. Hopefully, CS would be over and done with by tomorrow morning. ( And yes, I’m thinking of catching up with some sleep too. )
Ja ne!
Fangirl-ing~
As the title suggests. xD Completely in a fandom mode over Samurai Deeper Kyo right now~ Well, I don’t usually go for the sword-wielding, got-nothing-to-do-other-than-fight kinda mangas but this one’s surely managed to grab my attention. Yeah, I tried Rurouni Kenshin and Bleach formerly, and while RK was still quite okay, Bleach totally sucked for me. Though I guess most of my disinterest in Bleach comes from having to tolerate Ichigo all the time. He’s just outright annoying, imo. Heck, Renji and Grimmjow are damn loads better. Even their weapons look awesome! >.> RK was okay-ish, but then again, I kinda would’ve preferred to read the whole thing from Sano’s point of view, rather than it centering so much around Kenshin. And even though Kaoru’s one of the few girls I’d admire, Kenshin definitely started to bore me after a while. That’s the reason I think I loved SDK so much. Kyo’s just amazing. Period. And so are the other characters. And I actually like the reality in the fantasy world of SDK. ( And Sasuke’s too damn cute!~♥ I’d love to have a li’l brother like him. Though I guess I’d just spoil him to bits, hee. ) The battle sequences are meticulously detailed and actually use some physics for a change. No wonder the American toons can’t even come close to this with all their brawny punches n’ kicks. >.>
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Aw right, so I ceased to write in the night as it had got too late. Just finishing this now, and it’s almost 9 in the morning. Let’s see… bro n’ bhabhi got back from their honeymoon trip to Maldives, Mysore and Kurk yesterday. They brought me a Rubik’s Cube and lots of cute keychains!~♥ Yeah, I’m kinda crazy about keychains… and mobile hangers, which, sadly, I hardly am able to find here. I remember back in junior college when my keyring had six to seven keychains with just one or two keys, heh. The hobby kinda wore off recently, but now that they got me some adorable ones, I’ve put them all together again! And gonna put one on my bag, but that’s just because it’s too long and delicate to by on my keyring. Oh and the Rubik’s Cube! I’d wanted one for a long time now but it wasn’t ever something I just desperately needed. Even so, I’m really happy playing with it because yeah, somewhere inside, I really love living a geek’s life, lol.
So… nothing more to write for the moment. Gonna practice on making some more anime eyes for now. And rip that XP bootable CD. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention – Zoe was having this problem of abruptly shutting down every few minutes. It seemed like a hardware problem ( heating issues, most probably ) to me. Still, I got it checked and found out that the CPU fan was malfunctioning due to a lot of dust. Dad cleaned it up and it seems to be working alright now. Had been on the whole night. But the PC repair guy told me that the registry has gotten corrupted as well so I’ll need to format the whole thing at least once. Now that’s a hell load of work considering what all I’ve got installed and running at the moment. So I’m kinda delaying it as much as possible. I mean, think about it – Photoshop, Corel, Dreamweaver, Flash, Azureus, Huawei Router, Tablet plus all other usual applications alongwith getting all the settings done again. -sigh- Will definitely take me a day or two. So maybe I’ll do it in the vacs after the sem-ends.
Alright, that’s it for now. I’d wanted to put up my thoughts on the shoujo manga I’ve read so far, which are, if not many, then not few as well. But that’ll have to wait for the next post.
So long~ ^.^
Chibi L
Had this major urge to just do something in PS again, and saw this chibi L lying around. Well, I replaced sugar with Light, but I guess there won’t be any complains. xD
Yay for Light~
Even though it’s just a doodle ( took me around 25 minutes to sketch and paint but that included my PC shutting down on me twice ._. ), I kinda like it. Because chibi L’s always cute, lol! Now I’m thinking of practicing some actual anime drawing for today. And study Math a bit. Dude, I’m seriously gonna flunk if I keep up with this procastination. -sigh- Well, if I get a good result from the practice today, I’m thinking of doing a Kyo soon ( I love his hairdo even though it’s kinda tough to draw!~♥ ). Drawing a battle stance is much more difficult than a simple focused state, but I’m kinda getting the hang of those stances now, so I guess I’ll go for a Mizuchi one if I can. The only drawback is that as far as I’ve read, I haven’t seen the real Kyo doing a Mizuchi, so I’ll have to use Kyoshiro’s stance and Kyo’s body as references. Whew, sounds a lot of work. Alright then, I’ll start on it right now! ^.^
Oh and, if I possibly get too bored just sketching, there might be a poem-let update, heh!
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Because there’s no point of thinking out a title for something like this. Just a simple rant from a very stressed out mind. Been studying maths the whole day ( and former night ), so what do you expect? Anyway, had to write out something to get my focus back – had been lounging around just two pages for the past two hours now. But the positive side – managed to pen down something productive in a while. Just a li’l paragraph of poetry but hey, it’s still better than nothing. And my mind’s seriously rusting now. It’s as if I’m actually trying to close off all my creativity from bursting forth because of the lack of time and intention, and that’s starting to get to me in terms of stress and frustration. So it’s better if I take out an hour each day just to write out whatever I feel like, rather than wasting it on other social elements.
Note to self – got to charge the tablet. It’s come down to 37%. Well, I’d have to get back to studies, I guess. Still two hours till HYD2 5 gets downloaded, though I doubt I’d be able to watch it before everybody else goes to sleep. People really have a thing against J-dramas here. xD Have to live with it.
Anythin’ more I wanna write about? Hmm… oh yeah! I forgot to say that my brother got married a fortnight back! Lol, just like me to forget something this important. Though it isn’t really that important considering it was just to make the whole thing official rather than an actual traditional wedding. So yeah, I still have trouble calling my bhabhi as ‘bhabhi’ as I’ve always referred to her in the past few years as ‘didi’. Well, no big deal, according to me at least.
I recently realised that I had a bad habit of always writing ‘because’ as ‘cuz’. So all my sentences would be completely English but this particular word seemed to creep in without my noticing it. One day, when I was reading my previous works, I caught this problem and am trying to correct it now. Like the first word of this post was originally ‘cuz’ too, heh. Not that big a deal, but I just like to not use any slang in my posts. Maybe it’s because I love language quite a bit to stand all those shortened stuff. It’s okay when you’re using them for texting ( as there, you can be charged more for writing out the whole thing ), but it’s pointless when you can type it out using almost the same time you’d for the slang. And it helps you better your language too. Especially when you write in communities with a lot of authors and poets around. It’s a wonderful experience! :) And I’ve been lacking it for the past few months. u_u Really, the year I took a drop was definitely the most wonderful time of my life. Learned a hell lot of new things, made amazingly good contacts and friends, and had loads of fun! Wow, I’ve been retrospecting quite a lot these days, huh?
Okay then, guess I really should get going now. Been a while I took a break, and I know I can’t ever get bored of writing out my thoughts. There’s still loads I wanted to post about but oh well, most probably, I’ll be able to get in a post before I go to bed tonight. And post up that li’l piece too. Gonna make a collection of such pieces as it is a hassle to structure out a poem in the middle of thinking out a solution to a math problem. ;)
Bye-bye! ^.^
Return – II – Back for a while
Note : Got nothing to do with the Return – I post. Don’t think anybody would give a damn anyway.
So. Thankfully, Ikenai Taiyou’s playing. Well, Peach now. Whatever. They’re definitely much more soothing right now than anything else. Cuz I’m really pissed out of my mind. And I don’t even know why. Well, there can be a lot of reasons but none of them have ever gotten to me before. Maybe it’s a cumulative thing now. One of the times when I miss the past a lot. Mostly the times with my sis : those are moments I don’t think I can ever forget. Some of my most cherished memories of the past few years. When I could just throw away everything and chat happily with her about any damn thing in the world. People say that both of us can’t get enough of computers even when we’re together, and we do hardly get to meet. But when we do get together, we can’t fucking stop talking! There actually is so much to talk about! Then again, it could be because she’s the only one who can actually be said to be close to me. I mean, not your usual friends kinda close – much more than that. Even then, I know she’s still got issues that I don’t open up enough to her but oh well, I don’t think I really can do that with anybody. Guess I’m pretty reserved like that. -sigh- No, this isn’t gonna be any emo rant. This is just to clear my mind and that is it.
Okay, let’s talk a bit current and positive. So… guess the best thing happening to me right now is that I’ve finally fallen into a nice good schedule. Actionscript’s not that hard, hee. The language basics are pretty similar to C++, Java, HTML and CSS, a bit from everything. And I’m actually starting to have fun with it now. Learning comes to me easy, and well, as long as I enjoy it, it’s cool. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get done with this book soon enough. In two months – max. HYD2, while boring, is still worth the Tsukasa goodness. :) Though the only emotions Jun’s good at portraying are complete anger and complete idiocy. xD I just loved their ‘ Hingawa ‘ conversation, lol! Still, it’s loads better than the first season where things did not happen as expected, and the whole plotline was horribly twisted from its manga counterpart. The second one’s very much refreshing as it’s a different thing altogether so no expectations which don’t get met.
Put on Trigger now. One of my alltime favs, even though it’s got some serious negative undertones. Guess I love it for the voice and the character it represents, true to the core. I still remember getting amazingly startled when I came to know that this seiyuu could pull off such a deep gruff voice and sing so melodiously at the same time! Not that I didn’t admire that gruff voice ( lol, how can I not?! ~_^ ). Heh, knew I was gonna come round to this. Alright, no more about this!
Maaan, I wanna sing along but can’t. Too late in the night. 2.35 am. Okay, not so late, by my standards. But singing out aloud won’t go down well, I guess. ;) Wow, I can really cheer up myself so quickly. Hmm, maybe I really should write up an eye-mark post at LJ. Got loads which needs to be let out. And it’s already been so long I visited LJ too. Definitely miss the whole thing. ^^
So tomorrow, I’m gonna try to draw something with the tablet. Again, been really really long since I did this ( I think that was the last thing I posted on LJ ) and I’m gonna try chibi Ls this time. Cuz when it’s chibi, you’ve to more concerned about the overall expressions rather than the details. And I want to draw Sanzo ( or Konzen, but I’m scared of his long hair – too difficult u_u ) some day soon, once I master working with the tablet. Cuz I’d hate drawing a not good-looking Sanzo ( lol, I don’t think that’s really possible, but still ) and his hair too, are really difficult to manage. Though I think I’ve definitely got a hold of that ‘ Fuck off. Go die. ‘ expression quite well. Once I do manage to complete this thing, I wanna try making a smiling Sanzo. Cuz I know it’s really tedious and difficult but I wanna give it a try. ( And well, apply the Mitsumeteitai logic here and you would get it. xD ) Hopefully, I can pull it off. But before all this, I have to get done with making anime faces, bodies and angles. They’re striking different and un-proportional. I remember bookmarking stuff for this… will have to check them out.
Okaaay~ So I’m in a pretty upbeat mood now, thanks to… well, my usual mood-uplifter. :) Look at the irony – it is a person, and it’s not. Okay, it’s more of a ideal for me. Some level of nobility, humanity and practical yet distant approach to life I really wanna achieve. There are the sour sides too, but then, you don’t need to learn those, right? Maybe that’s why I’m attracted to these creations so much. There’s so much more life and reality than you can ever be faced with. Of course, you still have your own life to live on one hand, but there’s just so damn much that you can learn from them! It isn’t just about being a random stupid story, it’s about what you can infer from it. And what are your own values rather than blabbering about your ethics, traditions and culture. Haha yeah, I’m definitely okay now – already in the philosophy-ranting mode. ^^
Anyway, I’d better catch on some sleep now, or else I’m seriously gonna catch a fever now. Guess I’ve gotten really weak in the past few months. Well, mom’s definitely gonna blame it on my lifestyle ( which, I admit, won’t be much amiss ) but I need to find a way to stay fit alongwith continuing my current lifestyle. Surely it can’t be that much of a problem?
Alright then, will sign off now. Had fun blogging after such a long while. Good reminder of how much I love to write. Even if it is something as random as this. :)
Ja ne~
Edit : Forgot to tag it! Hah, how irresponsible of me. :P
